It’s been a few weeks since my last post Jesus Take the Wheel. I shared with you about the terrible accident my son was in. Life has been hectic to say the least since then. It has been filled with an array of emotions, which leave me feeling both mentally and physically exhausted.

This past year, I have learned more about medical terms and procedures than I would have liked! The things that I have only heard others speak of before are now something I can relate to. We have met some incredible people on our journeys this past year! Forever grateful to those who have dedicated their lives to saving and helping others!! ♥

I wanted to share a beautiful moment that I experienced while my son was in ICU. First, let me try and explain the scene. We were actually in the trauma ICU so it was a little bit hectic and well, ‘trauma’ like in this area. The atmosphere was surreal though.  A lot of serious, somber looks from the staff and family members filled the space. Not an environment that makes you ‘feel happy’ for sure.

After my son was stable enough for the staff clear his room, I took some time to just sit by his bedside and take it all in. He was in a sedated coma, looking life-less.  The only sounds in the room were coming from his breathing machine, along with the beeps from the other monitoring machines. It seemed that every tube and wire known was attached to him. He didn’t look like my son at all! Arms strapped to the bed, neck collar on, and tubes and wires everywhere.  Very hard to see someone you love in this state. My heart sank to a place that I pray I never have to go back to!!  During this quiet time, I began reflecting on the moment I found out that I was pregnant with him and how in that very instant I began to nurture and care for him. My role from that instant moment was to protect him and care for him. But now, I sat there feeling helpless. Knowing there was nothing I could do. I couldn’t even wrap him up in my arms and hold him like I had so many times in the past when he was hurt or sad.  All I could do was pray, and that I did faithfully!

I took a picture of my son as he lay there.  I’m not sure why I did really? Not as if I wanted to see this image again anytime in the near future. I sat there, crying, heart breaking. For some reason, I decided to send the picture to my friend. My text message said this, “my view right now”. What happened next was a beautiful, powerful God moment!! Almost instantly I felt Gods presence and I heard Him say this.  “Child, close your eyes to what you see in front of you. Keep your eyes on Me, and let Me be your focus. I will handle what your worldly view is right now.” Whoa, talk about putting things into perspective!!

I was instantly filled with a peace that I had not felt until that moment. I know God is a loving God and He is always in control. I‘ve seen time and time again how all things can work together for His good. It’s just so hard to not feel emotional and allow the pain in your heart to take hold of you at times like this.  Losing sight of Gods perfect love, His perfect plan, hadn’t changed. But what did is that I was listening to my aching heart. The painful view before me made my heart ache to a point to where I began listening to the ache.

Life is hard. It’s filled with stress and things that can potentially cause our focus to shift off God. Satan loves nothing more than to swoop in and fill our life with anything that will shift that focus, shake our faith. The challenges we face with our children, jobs, finances, tragedies, education, relationships, death, illness, and a long list of other things can easily shake our faith, shift our focus if we aren’t careful.  Psalm 16:8 I keep my eyes always on the Lord. With Him at my right hand, I will not be shaken.

I can’t say that the moments and days ahead were easy while we were in the hospital. They are still not easy. What I can say is that God has filled me with a beautiful peace and allowed me to not just see the view in front of me. When I completely focus on Him, I gain strength. I feel hope. I know that whatever my worldly view is, or will be going forward, He will be right there beside me.  There is such peace in this, such power in this!!  Matthew 11:28 Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.

Close your eyes to what you see in front of you. Close your eyes to what the world has to offer, to what Satan wants you to focus on. Focus on God.  Lay your worries and your stress at His feet. His promises are greater, His love is stronger.  His strength is all we need to sustain us. All we have to do is… keep our eyes on Him!

Blessings!